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and rain and more rain.....and I am bored out of my mind.....
Falling like Icarus,
My sable wings are burning.
and I embrace the autumn , but in the air a sense of the winter to come , like a shiver , a thrill....like a shadow in my eyesight , and as summer ends I feel a sadness envelope me.
Sorry
Posted on 2009.09.21 at 11:15Current Location: United States, Ohio, Columbus
Current Mood:
content
Current Music: Return to Me - October Project
I have been absent allot again...and will try to post more often. =(
depressed
Deeper shadows gather around me in the night , thinking there would be no daylight for me this time. Left in the darkness of a world who lost its sun eons before. I find myself lost here, strangely comforted by the loneliness washing over me like the sea. Like the waves of the darkest abyss, deep in the midnight hue of the sea of my disappointments. Drowning , swallowing them , like thick water, burning my lungs who scream for air.. The air of freedom which can save me from the continual decline of my life. The repeating of a past I cannot escape. Sinking slowly , like being consumed by the darkness of my own hell. And when I perish and my body washes upon the shore, who will find me? Who will remember me?
Here I sit at 11:09 p.m. in a complete state of depression. Nearly two years ago I was very happy. I was excited about life and looking forward to the future. Now I can only sit about wondering about the mistakes I have made. All i wish I could do right now is run away. At this very moment. If I had five hundred dollars I would just jet. I would just go back home. But I don't. I just have no idea what the next day will bring for me. Like I don't already know I will wake up, see Brandon off to work and sit about bored trying desperately to keep myself occupied so I wont think about things. I am just really alone again here and the worst part of it is I have no way out of it any time soon. Someone , anyone please just take me away from here. Now.
It's been a long long time but I am returned. Lifes been one big roller coaster ...and I got off the ride in Columbus Ohio. I am here and working for a credit card company....good job.....and Brandon and I are are still together.....so....other than that life is boring!
What Cylon Model are You?
So I have been gone awhile. Sorry. I am alive. Things here in Ohio are still great if you don' think about the fact I am jobless , carless (for the time being) and my boyfriend has a bad BAD flu. Wish me luck, send me good vibes and know I appreciate each and every one of you guys! Lots of love!!!
Broken arrow , laying in the dirt, no one claims me , I am no good. Broken with no purpose, forgotten and deserted. Broken arrow in the dirt, long forgotten and alone, hidden under the years of sediment, under the growth of vines and grass, so like my heart...like this anger hidden in my chest....a broken arrow in my chest, festering and black. So slowly it poisons me. Broken arrow , like a heat inside, I can only last a little longer, waiting for the death to come. The bandage it lasts a little while, but who will pull this from my chest? This broken arrow that has been driven into my heart, by my own hands?
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I am here as you all know and things are just peachy! I have my first job interview tomorrow at 2 p.m. so wish luck!
Anoher song that makes me think of You
Posted on 2007.08.08 at 21:36Current Mood:
content
Current Music: I'll follow you into the dark ~ Death Cab for Cutie
I'll follow you into the dark ~ Death Cab for Cutie
Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark
"Breathe"
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face and I've
Never been this swept away
All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze
When I'm lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart
'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe
In a way I know my heart is waking up
As all the walls come tumbling down
I'm closer than I've ever felt before
And I know
And you know
There's no need for words right now
'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face and I've
Never been this swept away
All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze
When I'm lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart
'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe
In a way I know my heart is waking up
As all the walls come tumbling down
I'm closer than I've ever felt before
And I know
And you know
There's no need for words right now
'Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe
I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way
Today is going to be memorable for the rest of my life
Posted on 2007.07.23 at 21:39Current Music: Boum Boum ~ Voyageur ~ Enigma
The most wonderful thing to happen to me happened this evening. I never expected it nor did I look for it. I was wrapped in the feeling of apprehension and fear....that naught would come of it all . Until those words were spoken. Words that mean so much and that have cost me so much. Yet they came without so much as a warning. Said with conviction and with sincererity. A word not well used in my own vocabulary or spoken aloud much. Something that I felt for years was beyond me . A thing I was wholly unworthy of. Yet today , this wonderful day, it was said to me and I believed it. I reel from the shock .....unable to really feel anything beyond a sense of disbelief. I am beyond words....and beyond emotion right now.
This song makes me think of him alot.
EYE OVER YOU ~ Haujobb
needles in a vale of safety
dry up a silent sea
protect the country
immediately
necessary natives right
deflecting all light
never look into the eyes
gentle lie
doubtless on the screen
in justice we believe
within the scope of legality
but left on your own
grown up as them all
decisions desired to ratify the law
never want to know
the secrets of the high brow
upright in blue
eye over you
revenge violence priviledge
exactly chosen quality
intuitive systematically
faultless protection
neutral selection
all what it seems
must be a new world's dream
never want to know
the secrets of the high brow
upright in blue
eye over you
needles in a vale of safety
dry up a silent sea
protect the country
immediately
necessary natives right
deflecting all light
never look into the eyes
gentle lie
doubtless on the screen
in justice we believe
within the scope of legality
but left on your own
grown up as them all
decisions desired to ratify the law
never want to know
the secrets of the high brow
upright in blue
eye over you
revenge violence priviledge
exactly chosen quality
intuitive systematically
faultless protection
neutral selection
all what it seems
must be a new world's dream
never want to know
the secrets of the high brow
upright in blue
eye over you
Current Music: Time to face the Music ~ Conjure One ~ Kaskade Remix
Powerful
Then we both went home
On separate trains
When the heart had gone out of it
But I'm gonna cry, I wanna laugh again
I'm not gonna try when it isn't happening
I'll just let it go
Can you feel me now, powerful
Do you hear me now
Every things possible
Wonderful, feel like I'm beautiful
When we both look back
We don't see the same
I don't need to deal with that hurt again
Cause I'm ready to fly
I've gotta spread my wings
I don't wanna die without living
Just let me go
Can you feel me now, powerful
Do you hear me now
Every things possible
Wonderful, I feel like I'm beautiful
You told me that I could never love
With out you
I didn't argue with the fact
I guess I was happy with that
At the time
Can you feel me now, powerful
Do you hear me now, any things possible
Wonderful, feel like I'm beautiful
Natural, lyrical, no longer cynical
Then we both went home...
Skye Love Show Lyrics
V1
Sit down, give me your hand
I'm gonna tell you the future
I see you, living happily
With somebody who really suits ya
Someone like me
Br
Stand still. Breath in
Are you listening?
Ch
You don't know
Somebody's aching. Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
V2
Break down. Give me some time
I don't want the fear to confuse ya
Right now, it's so wrong
But maybe it's all in the future with
Someone like you
Br
Stand still. Breath in
Are you listening?
Ch
You don't know
Somebody's aching. Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
Mid 8
Maybe truth, maybe lies
Made me want you
Maybe dumb, maybe wise...?
I don't know
Ch
Somebody's aching. Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
You don't know
Somebody's hurting. Holding it all in
Somebody can't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
Love show
Letting your love show
Sit down, give me your hand
I'm gonna tell you the future
I see you, living happily
With somebody who really suits ya
Someone like me
Br
Stand still. Breath in
Are you listening?
Ch
You don't know
Somebody's aching. Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
V2
Break down. Give me some time
I don't want the fear to confuse ya
Right now, it's so wrong
But maybe it's all in the future with
Someone like you
Br
Stand still. Breath in
Are you listening?
Ch
You don't know
Somebody's aching. Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
Mid 8
Maybe truth, maybe lies
Made me want you
Maybe dumb, maybe wise...?
I don't know
Ch
Somebody's aching. Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
You don't know
Somebody's hurting. Holding it all in
Somebody can't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
Love show
Letting your love show
Lyrics > Skye Lyrics > Skye Love Show Lyrics
to open up , to feel, it's a great big danger world
let someone in, touch your skin, to feel
their lips on yours, is dangerous. it all begins ,
just an innocent thing with one little sin,
lust and love so hard to seperate.
but just because , to ifatuate
i feel just one, doesn't mean that we are lovers.
to keep this hidden , undercover
keep your space, i keep my heart,
so you can't break it. or tear it apart
you turn away , i say "please stay"
you turn your face and walk away
and you keep on goin' no more hello's , no more goodbyes,
this wasn't my idea in the first place. and I ask myself why? ,